The burger

So looks like I spilled all in the last post. Or did i? :P :P

Have you ever had this sudden craving to eat something so bad and can't stop thinking about it till you have it? I dont know if its just me or everybody has one of those moments!

A few days ago, I had this unstoppable craving for a burger. Now theres a story called the Burger story you should know before you read this :D I think i was 8 or 9 years old, and i was at this bakery called Universal Bakery (the Hyderabadis reading this will know the place). I was eating a burger. Lots of chips and onion rings, and i'm a ketchup fan so it was ketchupy too. So i was eating this burger and it was so good and I have small hands, small fingers, so the burger seemed so big in my hands! I was so happy, i felt i could eat that thing for hours and it wouldnt be gone. :D So i opened my tiny mouth to take a bite and i saw the filling fall out, covered with ketchup, in slow motion on to my tshirt. My tshirt was WHITE. :-S Big dirty stain on my white tshirt. :-S So since then i havent eaten a proper burger. That is if you dont count that bite of the lousy lame ass excuse for a burger than Cafe Coffee Day serves which gave me a stomach ache. Until a week ago. I couldnt stop thinking about it! Everytime i closed my eyes, I'd see a burger with angel wings floating in the air saying, "You want me.......you want me" in this sweet voice. Everything else tasted so rubbery!

So the next day was a sunday and Ram decided to end my burger pangs. :D There's this place that I called "The special place" that he's been to, too. So he got me this huge Chicken burger from Big byte and we went there and sat down, and i kid you not, lots of chips, extra onion rings and ketchup! AND this time i was wear black. :D I ate that beautiful big burger in the next five minutes without a break or a word in between. and OH.MY.GOD. that is all i had to say.It felt like the clouds had parted after WEEKS of rain and the sun just peeped out and smiled.

It feels good to be back in the burger scene. :D

PS: i still dropped some on my jeans btw.

The leap

Dating is so hard when you're just out of a long term relationship! One moment you're all set and comfortable and the other moment its all gone, maybe because you CHOSE it to be so. But you're still like "omg, whats going on? Was that the right decision?". Its scary when you've been out of the dating scene for a while. There's new guys, new rules, new challenges, new decisions to make all over again...gets pretty taxing in the beginning. But i guess its all about the moment when you're READY for it. when you're ready to move on, when you think you want to take the leap all over again, let somebody into your personal space, your intensely private moments. How long a break is good enough? Depends on how you deal with it. For some lucky ones, the person is right there, helping you through your tough times and you're too stupid to notice how much he cares, how much he's into you but wont do anything to make you his because he's waiting for you to be ready for him.

But even when he/she is right there, theres always the doubts. Is it the right time? Is he the right guy? Are we compatible? Am i doing the right thing? Is it too soon? Is it going too fast? Then theres the distractions. Other guys you're attracted to but you dont know why! You dont know what you're feeling, what to do. So for a while you put making the decision off. Let time decide, you think. Eventually it all comes around. You have to make the choice. You HAVE to get over what happened and give it another chance. You have to be strong and give yourself hope and take the leap. You have to give him a chance. The first date...the first time you hold hands.....the first kiss.......the giggles.....the private jokes.......presents....flowers.....gestures.....the long rides......the short trips together......the kissing when you think no one's looking......the movies....the late night calls to say "hi"and the call lasting 3 hours.....the first time he says "i love you".......the blushing......its all right there on the other side. Well at least most of the time. There could also be the meaningless relationships, drinking sessions, one night stands, heartbreak, pining for something steady. Its all about how much of a risk are you really willing to take.

I just took the leap.:) and it feels SO good.

Transition

Life.....
Its a small word, but its long at the same time.....unbearably long for some..excruiatingly short for some..

WHAT is life???

When I was 5, Life to me was all about school, books and chocolates.
When I was 10, life to me was about laughing, giggling and making new friends.
When I was 15, life to me was about exams, movies, chinese food and clothes.
And soon, it was about all of it....education, clothes, guys, chocolates,books, friends,movies,smiling, screaming, crying, shoes, bags, watches (ok, not really, i'm not a lot into these things)....and after all these years of pondering and pretending to know what my life was exactly I'm stumped...
Is life about watching the sun rise and set, thus stealing away a seemingly glorious day of your lifespan??? Is it about gazing up at the moon and stars and trying to unravel the hidden meaning in their twinkly twinkles??? What is the purpose of these things???Life, friends, love, education.....Friends go....and for the most of us, loves goes away too...very few end up with love "forever", how ever long THAT is...Education, oh worthless education...a tall pile of certificates....do they count as achievements??? If they do, then where is the sense of achievement?? Or is this how achievement feels?If it does, I'm disappointed... But i'm sure it doesnt...its supposed to feel great...achievement oh sweet achievement...
So what exactly counts as an achievement??? I feel this great warm thing in my heart when i do something to bring a smile to someone's face....its the same feeling, this time in the stomach when i eat chocolate....So is achievement a chemical reaction?? Is life all about asking questions and trying to find answers to them??

After years of pretension and thinking....i give up.

I love my life.

Hello

:)